As it gets closer to my departure date, I think about what I have gone through in the past few months since I started my journey towards my future. I decided that I was not going to settle for a 8-5 job that pays good(a job that I like, and I am so happy and fortunate that I have, but it is not my dream job), and that I was going to take a chance and go into unknown territory. Since July 2015, my anxiety has gone up, I now take medication for it (which has really helped), I changed my mind about studying Spanish History and changed to German/Austrian, I started reading about the Holy Roman Empire from the 16th century to the early 19th century, have dedicated every second of my day to better myself and look after myself too. I set a goal to get healthier, not lose weight otherwise I will probably gain it instead. In 215 days, 22 hours, 17 minutes, I will be on a plane to my newest adventure. Every second that passes I think about what this new experience will be like. I am a natural worrier and I like to plan up to the last second of most things. It is hard for me as there are so many things that are not in my hands like getting a notification about financial aid. Last email just said that I will be contacted by march… MARCH! You know how long that is in Ascenett days?! That’s like 1 whole year, even thou it is only a couple of weeks away. I like to be in control of most if not everything I do, and it is starting to drive me crazy. So, as a solution I started to concentrate on looking pretty every day, doing my makeup every morning to give myself something that I can be in control of. I also started to go to the theme parks as much as possible with my friends as it gives me something to do besides worry every single day, plus I really do miss my friends. Every second it passes, it gets closer to my goal and I cannot wait, with the help of god and my mother, to get there sane.
Thank you for listening to my rant, and if you are feeling the same way about a future adventure that is coming up in your life, comment below. It is always good to know someone that is going through the same thing.